Day 1 of Water Fast by Sacristia Blog entry

Blog: My Health Journey
by Sacristia

Day 1 of Water Fast

My daily Journey to a healthier life style

Date: 3/29/2011 2:22:39 PM ( 13 y ) ... viewed 12169 times

March 28, 2011

I woke up with Mekong laying across my neck and on my cheek. It was very cold out, not just from my low metabolism but it was the actually temperature (19 degrees). I laid there for a bit, and grabbed for my water, and I realized that I actually did break my fast yesterday.

I have to say that I felt a bit better then I did yesterday. My stomach was growling a bit, and I was hesitate to eat something, thinking maybe I could continue my water fast as I did before when I broke it in the past. So as I was getting dressed for the office, I decided that I would start over again, so I could at least finish the Lenten Fast. I even laughed a bit, as at least I broke it temporarily on Sunday, which by fasting rules in the Catholic church, is proper. LOL

I have to say that my stomach was protesting all day by growling, which wasn't pleasant. During lunch, I went over to Christy's to keep me way from anywhere I might go to eat. I think she heard my stomach growl, but she didn't say anything to me.

I guess it will be a toss up if I will have the will power to start a water fast again. At least water taste better then it has been. I still can smell acetone on my breath, but it isn't as bad as I thought it would be. I am sure that juicing has really helped on that.

My day at the office was still stressed, as there is going to be a lot of changes going on, which I am not happy about. I am trying to find a little bit of happiness in my life at the moment. I am trying to focus on the good things such as I have a job, I have a car and I am in good healthy. Not some much that the guy is not talking to me anymore and he has someone new in his life. It is hard at times, as if my soul wants to creep down into sadness. Is it because I am really hurt at the failure in the relationship I tried so hard on.

I found myself talking to God, knowing that He knows my feelings and what I am struggling with. I need to focus more on Him then on the guy.

I went over to Christy's for a little while, but I found myself getting irritated regarding various issues at her house. She has two people living with her, which don't work, yet eat her food and smoke her cigarettes or use her phone as it is their own. She struggles, but it is because she is feeding more people then her own children. At least when I eat over there, I buy her some more food or bring some of my own food over, so replace what I have eaten. I hate to see she struggle, but then she won't do anything about it either. It must be a part of me that feels that she is in a situation like I was with the guy.

I need to find new friends that I can relate to. Last week, the one attorney asked if I had an educated friends. I honestly told him “No” realizing that is my problem. I don't have any friends that are educated or even strive to better themselves. Christy has has a high school dipolma, but everyone else around her like her brother and his girlfriend don't. They are social security, and sleep all day and are up all night. Christy's boyfriend dropped out of school, but doesn't work either. He is 29 years old and lives with his parents and off and on with Christy. I guess a part of me is angry, because I work hard for what I have, yet Christy just allows people to use her. I was in her situation just a while ago, but I was blinded because I loved him and thought he loved me. Boy, was I wrong. He was just using me, because he thought I was stupid enough. I really wasn't stupid. I was just lying to myself that it would all work out in the end. I had hoped that things would change a bit once he got on his feet and started working. Oh well, enough of that.

So I went home, cried a bit because I feel trapped within my own boring little world, because I don't know how to make newer face-to-face friends. I ended up watching movies and reading books until I fell asleep. I looked at my phone a couple times hoping that the guy would text me, that anyone would text me. I realized how lonely I have become, that I am watching my phone to see WHO might call or text me. I put my phone on my dresser to I wouldn't want to look at it. I ended up watching Johnny English, which I knew that I would like as I love Mr. Bean. Watching that movie really cheered me up. I now have three Mr. Bean movies. I don't know which one I like best. LOL

Mekong kept me company until I fell asleep around 10:00 p.m. My stomach growled a bit, but I think I have figured that I will continue my water fast, as I thought I might (at least until Easter, as I had planned)

EXERICISE: walked 1. 79Miles,

WATER INTAKE: 26 ounces of water

WEIGHT: Unknown