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After the Fast: HUNGRY! 16 y
I have more food cravings now, than I did while I was fasting!
Saturday I broke the fast with a half apple in the morning, some juice and MC lemonade in the afternoon, and cooked bok choy with tons of garlic for dinner. Bok choy again for breakfast on Sunday, then chopped up tomatoes, onions and cilantro spooned into big lettuce leaves like veggie tamales, and bok choy for dinner. Juice in between of course. Today, steamed multi-grain rice with that onion/tomatoe salad for breakfast, followed by fruit juice and for early dinner, rice with smoked salmon and miso soup. When I have a craving, I sip on a few spoonfuls of maple syrup.
All I can think ab ... read more Day 3: Feeling SKEPTICAL 16 y
Wondering if "cleansing" and "detox" is for real.
To keep myself motivated this afternoon I’ve been reading around on the Internet about detoxing, flushing, fasting and cleansing and I’m starting to wonder if some of these ideas are indeed quackery:
A pathologist quoted on Quackwatch about ”Mucoid Plaque”
Wikipedia on ’Mucoid Plaque’
Skeptoid on ’The Detoxification Myth’
Montreal Gazette article on April 5, 2008
Come to think of it, even as I’ve browsed the Curezone.com forums over the last few years, I don’t recall seeing any posts from people who passed ”mucoid plaque” without using bentonite and psyllium ”kits” they ordere ... read more 3-Day Juice/Lemonade Fast 16 y
I'm back with an update after two years.
Wow. I just read back through these old blog postings and can’t tell you how far I’ve come psychologically and emotionally over the last two years. I’m long over Jones and have made some career changes. I must admit however that my negative attitude often curtails some of the work I’ve done for my positive outlook.
Physically, I still cave into the occasional cigarette after stuffing myself with a good meal, but I drink a lot less and haven’t taken any pharmaceutical sleeping pills for almost two years now. However, my diet hasn’t been very good this past year and a half. I didn’t do AN ... read more Emotional Healing 18 y
Now that I'm physically on track, it's time for emotional healing.
These last six weeks I’ve taken only two sleeping pills. Sometimes I don’t sleep much, but at least I’m alert and not groggy. I’ve smoked a bit here and there after meals, about once a week. But that sure beats a pack a day. And I’ve caved into a pizza here and there.
But overall, I feel alright.
I talked with a good friend a few nights ago about the pain I’m still carrying around from Jones (see posts below). I’m STILL hurting over that relationship. Now that my health is underway, it’s time to unload some emotional baggage.
According to my friend’s suggestion I wrote down all th ... read more Eating everything, and sleeping sometimes 18 y
I'll eat anything lately, except sleeping pills.
I’ve had a cigarette here and there, and ice cream and pizza. I haven’t been drunk. And I haven’t taken a sleeping pill in two weeks. Some nights I haven’t slept, and some nights only for a few hours. But I don’t feel anxious, and that’s important. I’m not even anxious that I’ve been eating so indiscriminately since I ended my fast. I’ve gained some weight, and it’s not totally unbecomming. I was a bit underweight before. But still, I feel sluggish. I need to get back to the gym and get a regular sleeping pattern before I try to fast again. visit the page I slept! At night! 18 y
And I feel rested...
After a bowl of noodle soup I lay down to read, expecting to be awake all night, but my mind was calm, my body relaxed. I think I fell asleep well before 2 a.m. Woke up to some noise a few hours later and fell asleep again until my alarm went off at 8:30. I feel rested! visit the page Disappointed: No Stones 18 y
I broke the fast early, after 3 1/2 days, but looking on the bright side: No sleeping pills for 4 days.
Late yesterday afternoon finally had a solid, twisted-together, decent sized BM that smelled very much like maple syrup. Later I broke the fast with bok choy stir fried in OLIVE OIL, onion, garlic, sea salt and a little Szechuan pepper. I stayed awake all night with unusual energy (sleeping pill detox?) to clean my apartment, organizing and throwing things away.
This morning I did a SWF that produced the usual results: Nothing green, no stones. Disappointing indeed. After the flush was finished I made salsa lettuce wraps (chopped tomato, green onion, cilantro, garlic wrapped in giant, l ... read more First Liver Flush: BARF. 18 y
Maybe 2 cups of olive oil is too much for a beginner.
I’d originally planned my Liver Flush to end the fast after Day 5, but was so bored after three days of fasting and thinking about food that I decided to go ahead with it last night. I used the recipe from the book Are You Stoned, summarized here on curezone.com, which calls for two cups of virgin olive oil. It seemed like a low maintenance recipe because where I live, it’s not easy to find new age healthfood stores with all the herbs and oils detailed in the other recipes.
Since I have trouble sleeping at night, I began at 10 p.m., drinking the extra virgin olive oil in 1/4 cup doses e ... read more Fast, Day 3 18 y
I'm very happy that I've been sleeping. Just frustrated that it can't seem to be at NIGHT.
Another sleepless night, but at least aches and pains were minimal thanks to a one-hour massage in my neighborhood. A friend and I are going to a spa tonight and I’ll likely get another massage. Hey, if I’m not spending money on food, right?
Food cravings are coming in waves. I curb them with maple syrup (organic grade B) lemonade. I’ve also drunk hommade veggie broth (tomato, onion, celery, ginger) and fruit shakes (apple, strawberry, orange with ice). Psyllium packets in water when I wake up and before bed. SWFs every other day. visit the page Fast, Day 2 18 y
Awake all night, asleep all day.
I spent last night tossing, turning, reading, fantasizing, agonizing, tearing up, with body aches--couldn’t get comfortable. The light came in, and I fell asleep, I’m guessing say, around 7 or 8 a.m. Woke up around 2:30-3:00 almost free of aches and pains, with sleep in my eyes. So I have slept without sleeping pills!
But I’m scared of the nighttime again. Will I waste all day tomorrow in bed, too? I HAVE TO SLEEP, no matter what time, or I’ll get paranoid and delusional. I hope my body clock can just automatically adjust sometime this week. Like I said before, I don’t have to work. So ... read more Fast, Day 1 18 y
Despite a few stumbling blocks, I'm still going forward.
Yesterday I ate fish, rice and vegetables. I had ONE drink at the pub. No cigarettes. I came home around 11 p.m. and popped half a sleeping pill. MY LAST. And I’m scared of the anxiety and mental anguish that will come from not taking these pills.
But I decided to begin my fast today. If I have to stay awake for the next three or four days to get these pills out of my system, then fine. It’s a holiday and I don’t have to work, and there will be no better time to get this over with, than now. visit the page Meltdown: Alcohol, cigarettes, AND ice cream 18 y
Tomorrow.....errr, TODAY, is a new day.
Just came home. It’s a holiday where I live and everybody is celebrating. I drank three scotch sodas, smoked more than five (under 10) cigarettes, and just got home and devoured three ice cream bars. All the face cream in the world can’t save me now. It’s almost 6 a.m. and I’ve just taken 1 and a half sleeping pill. My fast begins 2 days from now.
At least I haven’t eaten any red meat. visit the page Anxiety Attack: 5 Ice Cream Bars 18 y
And now I feel better.
Everything was going along smoothly. Still not smoking, down to half a sleeping pill a night, cut out meat and junk food, and then last night and today I’ve been feeling anxious, depressed, irritable, confused, forgetful, with a headache. After work I stopped at the convenience store to by five ice cream bars, and polished them all off! And I actually feel emotionally stable after this.
I won’t question it. I don’t even feel guilty. I’ll just continue with my plan. It’s better to eat ice cream than get drunk or high, or take 3-4 different sleeping pills. ”Tomorrow is another day.” visit the page Still gaining weight. 18 y
Three weeks not smoking see weight gain and constipation, regardless of no junk food or cheese.
I’ve been doing SWFs every other day in order to have bowel movements.
This week I’ve cut out meat (except fish) and alcohol in addition to junk foods. But my appetite is still huge. I’ve been eating mostly salads, veggies, fish and white rice. Still gaining weight.
And I’m still getting by on just half a sleeping pill a night.
By the end of the week I should be trying to eat as much raw food as possible with lots of juice, and next Monday I begin the fast. visit the page No junk food for one week: PIMPLES! 18 y
Still not smoking, sleeping pills cut back, and ready to cut out meat and alcohol. My fast begins one week from now.
According to my 6-week plan (see prior post) I’ve cut out junk food (sugar, colas, caffeine, ice cream, pizza, etc.) but remain constipated. The last two days I’ve even been blessed with pimples!
Today, I begin cutting out meat (except fish) and alcohol.
I still haven’t smoked, not once, for 21 days.
My sleeping pills are down to half of ONE pill a night. I plan to quit them during my five-day fast next week.
*The difficult part now is trying to have a social life while taking care of myself. Already tonight I opted to stay home from a BBQ, since meat and alcohol will be the ma ... read more |