Re: Molly

What I noticed in me is that part of my pain is due to the fact that Lake takes me right back to some hurts of my childhood, if it is so he's also for me a great chance to heal, if I dare entering the pain. Last day I made a funny discovery, that all pain would suddenly go if Lake had a bestfriend, I even daydreamt of adopting this best friend of Lake and the thought was an enormous relief. I even asked Erik to swear to me we would adopt the best friend of Lake. Strange? no, as a child I had a best friend, Lucia, we were inseparable, I loved her more than myself. I was a lonely child but I was never alone because of Lucia. Whenever we went on vacation and I was suddenly deprived of her, I was sad and bored, so at a certain point we began to go also on vacation together Lucia and I not to ever separate. So it could be that all this talking bla bla about me not being born to be a mother was just missing the point at all, the fact is that now through Lake I live a childhood without Lucia and the thought is unbearable. Could be. You never understand completely what's going on in this misterious head...