Re: Molly

I will never be mad at you Serafina!

That's an interesting point. Very possible that having a "family" exerbated his already present depression. It was much worse when our baby was 4 mos old and he lost his job during a time when people (and I mean PHd's) were lined up for a job at a fast food restaurant). Bad time in the country. I think the responsiblity did weigh heavily on his already fragile ego.

All in all I think that our son distracted him from going all the way down the rabbit hole. And to see them together now is a great source of joy for me. They are big buddies. My son is very sensitive to his Dad's situation and adds value to our family.

I know you've been struggling with this, and I completely understand where you are coming from. When children are young, it's very tiresome for all of us. You feel like you are constantly "needed". I wasn't a perfect Mom...far from it. At times I felt too anal, or impatient, or selfish. It got so much better later when he was in grade school. And now that he is a man (15-1/2) I am so grateful for him. I do hope this is how it turns out for you also.

But I do agree with you....if deep down inside you know that children are not right for you, by all means do not have them.

Molly