Hello. I don't really know how to go about doing this so I'll just start like this: Most of what I said is,to some extent, BS. I am not a zombie. I have my days, but they are getting fewer and fewer. I wish I could delete what I wrote last night, but I guess it does give some legitamacy to the way I felt at the time, and it's probably why I feel so much better today. It looks like like I'm not the only one with these days, either. It's nice to get stuff of your chest to people where you won't have to explain yourself later or worry about secrets being whispered about you, etc. When I take an honest look back at the person I was 5-6 years ago I realize I was an idiot. Sure I was happier, but I was also very selfish and conceited. I never realized how lucky I was until this whole stench thing happened. Sometimes you forget about the little things like family and friends (the ones who stick by you no matter what). This website has also been a huge blessing and I wish the best to every person on it. Thanks.