Court Tomorrow 1/16/07

Well, tomorrow I face my NPD attacker in court to testify against him. A friend of mine was supposed to come with me (he had offered as soon as he heard), but he could not get his father-in-law to take care of the kids to get them off to school. I'm terrified to have to do this alone, but I'm terrified to take someone else with me that might make me uncomfortable when i'm cross-examined. I have no idea what kind of questions i'm going to be asked my his attorney, and I'd hate to not only have to subject my mother to my answers, but i might be inclined to lie under oath so that she does not have to hear the truth. So I have a 40-mile drive in rush hour traffic to face someone alone who may decide to kill me when he gets out of jail because, you know, i'm a rat. i know that testifying is the right thing to do, but i'm absolutely terrified of the possible consequences. Maybe looking at this a few more times will give me the strenght i need.