One day fine, next day taking Estrogen. It creeps up.

Hi Everyone,

I have been a curezone member for a long time. I learned so much stuff here! I did the Liver Flushes over the years, the colonics, the master cleanse, Chinese herbals.

It was all great and I felt great, and looked great. then, wham, one morning I couldn't get out of bed i was feeling so bad. I was depressed and, so, I beat myself up for allowing myself to slide into this probably with constant worry (particularly aging parents and how to handle them).

Anyway, maybe the Depression wasn't my fault, after all. I went to a doc and he sent me to a heart doc! Well, that wasn't it. I went to a psychiatrist who wanted to give me anti depressants. With research on line I found I was premenopausal and it was awful.

My symptoms mimicked mental problems, thyroid problems. I'd wasted a couple of months pursuing help in other areas. No one, you see, prepares you for menopause. I had NO idea that the symptoms I had: paranoia, weak legs, sad sadness, brutal insomnia, lack of confidence, lack of feelings, were bad premenopause ones. Yes, I had hot flashes, but these came earlier and weren't so bad. So, I never thought the other stuff was part of it.

Now I'm on estrogen. I've just started my seventh week. I take estrogen only since I have no uterus, so no need for the progesterone.

It's helping. But I just don't feel like I'll ever feel like my old curezone, happy self.

If anyone remembers me from the old curezone days, I say a very fond hello. I miss you guys: Katie, filmdog, garcia (who left early; there were lots of others, but I can't remember your handles), and Shelly (aka shellycat) the lady with her own forum who so generously answered all our questions. You know, I knew I'd get older, we all do. But I never thought I'd be crippled by menopause. (That's how I felt, particularly with the Depression and insomnia) I took good care of myself. Maybe my mind wandered to places it shouldn't have and I caused a lot of worry grooves.

Anyway, just getting in touch here, where I thought I'd never be -- because I thought I had it all under control!

At least I'm not weeping over it today.