Doors are NOT equidistant

There is one after another (if you are lucky)

I used to be able to go back and forth, but I think that is because I sayed in the doorway so long

Now no way

Don't think I haven't had the same fears

Finally God has loved me or I have loved myseld (?) enough not to cross back through.

In case you haven't noticed it is often after a choice has been made, while maybe feeling some intrepidation, that one may find the door not valuable
but with 20/20 hindsight a door walked through becomes valuable

In other words your experience with bad doors may be judged too early in the hallway

These are all euphimisms for trusting oneself that all will be brought to you that you need

Not that it is always what you'd have chosen in the moment

You are in charge, you picked your experiences Bad ot Good- these arre just labels of the cultural mileau