Re: Yes - there is help.

Hey EV-
Thanks what a great site. I'm not in crisis, really. Other than I'm 40 years old and my baby is 17. I wanted to share my experiences and how twacked out they can be and totally unjustified. I don't believe God killed my son r/t the abortion I had. I am forgiven! But there are days when those pesky little devil thoughts come cruisin' by and that is normal.
I do think I had too much on my plate with the m/c and felt I had to choose between my son and the baby, because of very stressful life events he was going through. Then the Parole Board and a 40 hour a week job. Today the baby comes first and I"m not working I cleared old stuff with the Parole Board and I'm ready for this new miracle. My son and adopted son are excited and so is my husband. Life is good today and I have lots of support. I wanted other women to know when they have those wacky thoughts they are not alone. Maybe only at Parents of Murdered Children are we allowed to really speak the wacky thoughts and be loved and supported through all the emotions. Life has no textbook and there is no absolute right way to do it. We all hold on and make the best decisions we can make at the time.
I do love this site and believe in it........C Tweet