im geeked DAY 5!

Im pretty geeked today...

In 5 days i have lost 6lbs! I started to Water Fast on Saturday the 13th.. and waterfasted on Saturday the 14th for 75% of the day.. the last part of the day i got really hungry and like i said before i juiced some carrot juice.

I felt really good doing this so i have continued to juice from then untill now. (so total fasting water/juicing is 5 days)

I drink lots of water with lemon and some cucumber in it (helps to retain less water and keep your body alkaline) and also juice alot of cucumber in my "dinner" drinks.

I feel really energetic today.. yesterday i felt miserable as i was bloated and slightly sick with my detox and diet change symptoms.

I started roughly 2 wks ago at 203lbs. i was miserable and being that im a short and petite person naturally it was taking its toll even though i still looked attractive. and never looked like i weighed that much. I decided to set a goal for myself and lose 5lbs by watching what i ate.. and i did. Then decided to fast (water/juice) and have lost 6 more! but twice as fast i might add!

My skin has taken on a nice hue due to my juicing and my eyes look more alive right now... i know it could change suddenly as im detoxing so i may have down days. I know juicing is a slower detoxification rate and slightly slower in weightloss.. but just as effective.

I may though waterfast only on some days on and off.. for right now this helped me not cave in anyways.

i went thrift shopping yesterday (which i love to do by the way) bought some really nice outfits that are some "goals" for myself.. but very attainable ones.. their not size 2 or anything lol. Try buying a few outfits whether new or thrift ones depending on your taste/style and hang them up...as a reminder. im so sick of "never having clothes" even though my closet is overflowing lol.. i just hate the fact i cant just go in my room and put something on.. i have to stretch it or improvise or hide.. and im tired of it.. i dont necessarily have to be body perfect in a bikini but id love to look good in clothes.

and ladies.. im 28 with 3 children so i have had many stretch marks and things arent as "perky" blah blah.. so im not some 17 yr old thats going to bounce back ever so lovely lol. But do any of you(i know this is personal) but have a problem with their partner or spouse being naked ? right now the thought horrifies me! i mean yes we have sex and what not.. but under covers and lights off! and showers.. always by myself. i even lock my bathroom door in fear he will see me.
Im tired of this and this is why i want to improve my appearance. Its not him that has a problem he always finds me beautiful and has NEVER said a negative thing about me.... but im tired of hiding i just want to feel free.. and for those of you that has never had a weight problem.. this is why we are willing to go thru extremes.
but realize though that this is a healthy way.. we just need to make sure we work on our attitude and the inside as well to get over unhealthy habits and addictions. :)
sorry for rambling! im just having an up day with energy but im also thinking way to much today! lol

Shy