Re: 42781....

If you didn't get a new piece of furniture in 26 yrs, except for two pieces that you mention, and the way you describe it, I think that there is more then just broadcasting a message that "you're not worth it". First of all, didn't YOU ever want to buy a piece of furniture? Why didn't you buy it? If it was because you didn't really want to buy anything - there's your answer! You probably didn't think you were worht it; and "as within, so without" applies, meaning - as you feel about yourself within, that's what you will broadcast on the outside (and will treat others the same way!). If you husband is the one who prevented the purchase of new furniture, then it's again probably because you're sending a message that you don't really count, including your opinions.

Also, being in a family of 6 siblings, it is very hard to get healthy dose of attention from parents. And that sends us a message that we are not important, at least not as much as the others.

The best thing to do is to try to feel how you feel about these statements, and which ones are easy (and which ones are hard!) for you to say:

- I am not worthy, I am a failure. I am miserable.
- I am eqally worthy, important and welcome as all the other people on this planet. I can be happy.

Which one is harder for you to say out loud (just reading it without actually saying it doesn't count)? The one that is easier to say out loud is the one that you are "programmed" with.