Read about Carl Jung's theory on synchronicity. It will confirm your feelings about receiving validation through coincidence.
Also remember that one cannot experience the positive without the negative. You would not appreciate the sun without being able to compare it to the rain.
The simple fact that you are here means that you are well on your way to enlightment. Seek and you shall find. Yes, visit a bookstore or library. New Age reading sections are no longer hidden in the basement...so to speak. Something will resonate within you like a pealing bell awakening your spirit and you will know with all your heart that you've found truth. Embrasse it. Find comfort in it. Let it heal your hurts and buoy you for the journey ahead. You'll never regret it my friend!