Re:Long Distant Triad

May I ask?
If your wife’s apologies humbled you - enough for you to stay in your marriage - what encouraged you to email that past girlfriend?

What encouraged you to communicate enough with this friend that your internet relationship “rekindled - tripplefold?”

I am assuming that this rekindling did not occur in one or two innocent emails...

Does your internet girlfriend know that your wife has become the woman you married?

Do you/did you continue a romance online while you knew/know this? If your wife “seems to be the woman I married” as you have said - is your wife not enough for you that you would still be able to write “I'm cheating and I do not feel guilty about it. We want to be together...I am just as ancious.
Where is this going? Do I stop it? It may be "the one". It sounds like you are still currently involved.

Is that like having your cake and eating it too?

Life IS as always - quite ironic, wouldn’t you agree?