what happened in yout NDE? I am always interested about how others might have viewed their NDE experience. You called it an initiation. Could you elaborate? I had a sense that I was given some spiritual knowledge that makes what I see in the world appear so much a rather silly game. I discovered that the world of buying & selling is a rather mediocre substitute for what is really important about our existence... God's love. It is this kind of love that defeats any kind of pettiness...any kind of judgement... I met this God who always had joyful laughter of the tip of the tounge...this being was marveled by me even...God gave me a roadmap for life...the map starts with love and ends with love...love as much as you can...you will mess up...but the mess ups are not important...do the best you can...and treat people the same way that God treated me...with joyful laughter on the tip of my tounge...constantly forgetting(forgiving) harm...I wonder what your initiation told you. I am intrigued.