help...

I suffer from premature ejaculation. It is ruining my life day by day and im am running out of reasons to live. Some say its caused by stress and anxiety but that cant be it. I have a strong chronic pain in my left testicle, all day every day. I started noticing it when i was 16 and I am now 19. Ive been to 3 urologists and they all say the same thing(nothings wrong). I also have this constant feeling of my anus and bladder being relaxed and pushing fluid out. I feels like urine is always at the tip of my penis and when i do urinate, it feels like im ejaculating. I pee when i poop, if i push just a tiny bit and sometimes semen will also come out. Ive had a mix of semen and urine come out when ive urinated after ejaculating. Ive been told this is impossible but it happend and i would not lie. Its like somethings mixed up.Also my epydidimis(left)is swollen and shrinks after i ejaculate. When i urinate its comes all at once, i dont stop and start again a few times before im done like normal people and at the end it drains out with a split stream. I dont have a blockage or whatever you call it.

Ive had sex with two girls in my life. Both of which say it doesnt matter but it does. If not for them for me. I feel like such a punk, 2 minutes and im done, leaving them wanting more and me depressed. I have really bad social anxiety and never leave my house, severe depression, staying up all night trying to find a cure, someone that will help. I would see someone but i have no insurance at this moment. I just want to enjoy sex, feel passion and fall madly in love with someone. Sex seems to be everything to women and if you suck you S.O.L

I could go on for days talking about this but i wont. If you have any, i mean any advice please give it to me, im desperate.....