Do I have to accept my fiance's dislike for giving OS?

I have talked about this here before. My fiance (we're getting married in 3 months) refuses to give me OS. He has done it manybe 4 or 5 times in 6 years, and all those times I had to plead with him. I have talked to him extensively about this. I have thought of breaking up with him. I love to receive it, it is heaven for me and the best direct stimulation you can get. I keep myself clean, have no diseases and I am fit and attractive. I also enjoy immensely doing it for him. I have tried not to do it back either but then I was missing out on something I enjoy and making S more interesting.
After a lot of thinking, I have decided he has other advantages and that I love him and that I have to accept that. Although it scares me to spend the rest of my life without it (my previous relationship I had it all the time).
I have fantasized of getting a lover just to do that, no strings attached, but I don't want to cheat and suffer the consequences.
So now I have 3 months to decide, but I am inclined to give it up. Sad...but I cannot force him to do something he doesn't enjoy. Like many women who hate AS.
ANyone in similar situation, in love with a man who hates to give OS?