Thank you for responding. I just, well honestly I had never really given a thought to me being molested well not for along time. But I realize now that I am older that maybe it has affected me more than I think. I know that I am very insecure about just everthing. I am overly jeleous. I guess I want to know does what happend to me play apart in the way that I am. I seem to drive every guy that I am with away. But not only am I insecure I have no self-esteem. And it kills me. Things are so bad right now. I am about to loose the guy that I am with right now because of these things. We have been together for over three years. But now he is ready to walk away. Can someone please help me to start understanding this.