Re: Alison
I freeze up too, I can't imagine getting up and doing strange things... but i suppose i could, good idea to leave reminders for yourself and make one's surroundings very safe, lock the door and hide the key!
I LIKE it! That you exist, not only as A, but as A! I don't know why but I really get that! And the escalator up the spine! WOW!
And I am amazed by the idea of you being a piano striker key playing over and over(and over and over and over). That repeating phase freaked me out the first time too, like that moment just kept skipping over and over, as if there would never be anything but that. I was passing through layers and layers of some kind of reality substance. Once I knew what it was though, I could pass through... with the plant to guide me on a journey, it is the most powerful plant ally, I think, there are others too, mushrooms are great guides, but this one is so, so very different from anything, that you can live lives in a few minutes! I don't know of any other that can impact time/consensus reality/ all cosmology in that way.
Being stuck in the floor, or being part of the floor wasn't as frightening as just having no idea what was going on at all. I mean that first time I was sitting in a chair one second and then I was in the floor somewhere else. pretty freaky! Being stuck in the repeat repeat repeat repeat phase is freakish.
Screaming sphere of Consciousness, screaming to be heard! And a chorus of tongues in the hedgerow! OH MY GOD! I mean how tripped out is that? Yet I quite understand the sensation of that! Reminds me of my bottom of the garden in the flower-bed!!!
Anthony I always think of your "existing between the breaths" now, that conjures up so much for me and I thought of salvia the very first time I read that post of yours.
The other times for me were so mind blowing that I have never been able to articulate what the experience was for me.
Maybe one day I'll use the plant and go on a deeper journey. I know what that is, the "fear", reverance for this special plant ally. I was called to it and it is not at all for recreational use, oh no.
I am so glad you posted your experiences A as I am so happy to feel that connection with someone like you!
I'm pretty sure you were there at that Venus Temple with me too!
love Alison