Help! I've tried just about everything

Any advice would be greatly appreciated! I've been cleansing on and off for the last 3 years and still haven't been able to achieve the results and superior health I'm looking for. I'm not really ill but I don't have much energy for my 52 years. In the past I fasted with the Lemonade Diet and with the P & B shakes since a website claimed the fiber would just attach to food and not the old matter. Last Nov. 2004 I decided to get er done once and for all starting with flaxseed twice a day. This caused quite the back up so I went for a colonic. 8 colonics later I was still 30 lbs overweight, bloated, gassed and considerly poorer since they cost $75 a pop. I've tried juicing, totally raw diet, PH balance, metabolic typing, proper food combining, hydrogen peroxide and Mag 07. I started with 4 pills at night and it took 8 to get things moving and move they did. After 3 hours on the toilet I did get that light feeling but thought it more prudent to back off the product for more manageble results. I hung in for 3 weeks of 6-8 small movements daily (with some gripping)decided to go back to the P & B shakes. I read Zule's post and have been doing the shakes and the Holistic Horizons cleanser for 2 weeks and while I'm getting larger action I am continuing to gain weight and still have the gas and bloating. I've already been through a course of Wormwood /clove/garlic parasite cleansing along with using a zapper. I've just recently added a diuretic to the mix. I drink plenty of water, yerba mate tea, use stevia for sweeteners. I gave up soda 10 years ago along with anything artifical. I don't think I can eat any cleaner! The weight gain is really too much to bear and seems unbelievable considering the long twisted bm's that are exiting and their large volume. Is there a really big one still to come? Is there some sort of blockage that I need to get past? The colon therapist would massage my stomach and there was always lots of gas to get around. I have not tried the Liver Flush as I don't think I could handle the nausea and the thought of drinking olove oil makes me gag. I've tried Senna which is quite gripping but can handle it in small doses. I've tried Cascara Sagrada at night but it doesn't seem to make any difference. I have not seen any hard rubber or those big mucous strings. I'm losing patience. Please help! Is there really some light at the end of the rainbow and one day I'll just pass gobs more stuff and then I'll feel great and the weight will fall off?? Oh yeah, I've also been taking probiotics because I probably have candida too. I have a small fortune invested in herbs and supplements.