just curious, do you have children? I have a 20 months old son. I can't even begin to paint, because I would be interrupted in 5 min. and that would make me freak out big time. This is in fact my major problem with having a child, I can't do anything! (painting, doing yoga, meditating etc. everything I would be absorbed with) I see you instead very much in the condition of falling inside your world, and I miss it and long for it every day under the sun.