The sudden realization, help needed

Hi, lately I dont know whats happening almost 2 years ago I was raped while 3 other men watched it happen, and after it happened it didnt seem to bother me, I never reported it or went to any therapy I only told my friends that were at the same party that night it happened. I thought I was fine But the last couple months I have been having nightmares about the event and I think about it and cry and I have become very depressed I don't trust anyone, since the event happened I don't want to be involved with anyone I even have trouble trusting ppl enough to be friends with them, but I dont understand why its affecting me now, why didn't I need help before? The worst part about this I lost my virginity because of this ordeal...

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