Re: so this is it

Hi,

This post may not make you feel much better, but hey grab an oar we'll paddle together!!!!!!! My life is crap too. ALWAYS has been, not to say I do have a few blessings in it. I seem to hit highs and lows. More lows than highs. Sad thing is I know what my problem is and I did find happiness but for some unforesaken reason, I find myself right back in this rotten hell whole of an exsitence I was in! I HATE my LIFE! we'll I hate parts of it. I love my husband even though I recently found out he cheated on me during a very low point in our marraige of 11 years. I love my daughter more than life even though she is a smart mouthed typical teenager. I hate everything and I do mean everything else. Except my cat of course. I was mentally, emotional, and physically abused as a child by my parents and still am emotionaly, verbally, mentally abused on a daily basis by them today. Most people would say get out! I did get out. But, circumstances brought me back so for a few months I found my happiness, great relationship with hubby, sweet little angel of a daughter and no daily your stupid, your fat, get a job your lazy blablablabblabab bull shi&+****!!!!!!!!!!
yes, I'm having a bad day too!!!!! They all seem to be bad! I ask myself all the time what the hell is the sense in this. EVERYONE would be so much better off with out me and my own personally drama of a life. I've tried therapy, doesn't work. why? because I don't need therapy, I need my own life. Many say so go get it. If only it was that simple, don't you think I would. ALL my life I have been put down and now I'm a walking shell. So my friend as I said you may not feel better but known your not alone!