Re: robbojnr - My offer is still open to you

invincible thanks for the offer very kind of you, i actually live in london ...

i am 33 my skin was fine until i had an allergic reaction to the skin care product in february i do believe...
it became hyper sensitive to uv light and now i cant go out at all, my skin has developed an infection over the last few months now as well which has completely traumatised me....
invincible i cant go out during the day due the light...hence i am housebound lost my job as well not doing anything all day ...cant play football anymore dont do yoga cause by evening time i am so exhausted having been in my head all day...

i have tried eft ....not much luck...
im feeling very angry with everything and everyone thinking..
before with my Depression i could always take myself out of it but now because my skin is buggered ...i cant even go out hardly in evening as it gets inflamed....
all the things i got simple joy out of like meeting my mates for football and watching football are gone, infact my mates dont come round anymore in a way i feel completely used and abused by them....
i feel a great hatred to them as they only came round when they were looking something or if i was cooking for them...

i dont know if my diet is right i eat vegetarian organic always have done for the last 3 years and i hear so much controversy with everything i read all the time on here which is part of the problem im so confused and i dont trust no practioner anymore as they havent got a clue....

i wont even be seeing my mum at xmas this year for the 1st time since i was born ....

i have been really ill before hospitalised but you know what it wasnt as bad as this cause i knew there was always some sort of hope the doc tried putting me back on meds months ago when i was literally so bad i felt i could kill myself i didnt want to but i felt i had lost control but i still didnt take the meds....there is a life force i know that for sure and i dont moan often regarding the shit i have been through cause i know most ppl cant be arsed well ppl in this self absorbed city anyway all so unaware and unconscious ...not one of my mates tries to empathise how it would be to spend all the time i do by myself indoors ....infact some ppl dont know how i do it i dont know how i do it...even the exercise i havent done cause im worried it might aggravate my skin, its just i feel i have made so many bad decisions in the last 6 months i know i cant turn the clock back but its crucified me...i know i need to ground myself but how can one be grounded faced with what i have on a daily basis.......

i know maybe if i meditated things might get better, i know if i did yoga things might get better but i now feel im in self destruct ...not knowing....


the lady before said about how she was goin to help i know noone can help apart from me ....going to church isnt going to help me i was brought up going to church i hate organised religions, al i could see was hate and condemnation for other religions in my family....denouncing everyone elses ideas and practices .....the hyprocosy in religion i witnessed first hand yes i do know all about being born again and that if we arent we are doomed, listen my dad is a born again christain and if his behaviour and conduct in this life has been far from so called christain like whatever that may mean....so i think i rejected religion for that reason and many others ....
you just have to look at the world to see why religion brings pain and sorrow not the so called joy and happiness that we are to believe....all are leaders are religious men and they order ppl to be bombed on a daily basis causing anarchy in our own society......

anyway thats it really it....

thanks for the offer invincible i have read you're posts before and you are a kind person i believe you will go to a good place with that kindness and compassion...