Re: Never feel hopeless

Hi Casandra,

Thank you again for your moral support.I need that.
Yes, I too go through my ups and downs, fortunately more ups than downs.Its forums like these and kind people like you that do allow me to express myself to those that KNOW what were going through and I am grateful for that!Ive always been the one people cry to or or unload their burdens on because I feel that compassionate listening is important for healing.Somehow though,I find it difficult for me to cry out to others,feeling like I am the strong one and I can handle this because throughout my life Ive had to be that for the ones I loved.Im always the one reaching out to others and supporting them.
Its funny that you asked the question "which side my Breast Cancer was on?".Its my right side and pertains to my mother?.I had always been the caretaker for my mother since I was young as she always called me "her right arm" meanig if it werent for me "she didnt know what she would do without me".She raised 8 of us kids pretty much by herself, God bless her soul(Idont want to leave my father out for he was the provider and did so, but was never at home except late at night.) she drank alot to cope and there were (she's passed years ago)alot of issues surrounding that .Her health slowly deteriorated,from that.But I remained by her side as no one else in my family did.They led their own lives.
My boyfriend I had at the time was also a mess- drugs and drinking who also died but was young.
The one Im with now I also helped in his health recovery and he is fine now but I cant turn to him. I feel I dont want to burden him for he is weak with his own ailments.
Anyway,I do tend to be very cautious and not fully trusting at times which I think hinders me in my need to be more aggressive in my protocols.I dont want to make a bad situatin worse as I dont see Drs..There arent any here who can practice alternative and its difficult to try something without the support.
However Ive made up my mind that I need to go more full force with the cleanses and and so forth.Right now my diet is all raw organic (has been for 2 yrs) I take many supplements and trying the ozone,I just started the ozone water.so I just need to allow more time and patience for that to see results.
Your right ,Iam still alive and not sufferring to the point of being bed ridden.And that I am very grateful for!
Thank you again Casandra,you are helping me more than you know,and I will pray for you as well.
As I sit here typing I glanced over to the little poster hung up on my hallway wall.I gave this to my boyfriend when he was going through his recovery of his back surgeries and wanted to give up.He didnt think he would ever walk right again after 4 other backsurgies as well.He's fine now and plays golf any chance he gets !(and performs his physically taxing job as well. He still has other unrelated physical prooblems but gets through those with prayer everyday)Its a picture of a hand, in a worn out weathered glove,dangling a football helmet.The large letters above it read "Never,never quit" Along side the picture is the verse:
Blessed is he who perseveres under trial because when he has stood the test,he will recieve the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him. James 1:12
Words I will heed
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