I'm so sorry you're feeling this way ;-(. I can definately relate after struggling for many many years myself. I think in the end you must find what works for YOU and no one else can answer that for you. That's why I stopped asking for advice here a long time ago. Most of the folks here are really kind but unfortunately do not have the answers you're searching for. Sadly, I have noticed the tone here is much different than when I first became a member ( years ago ). Some new members are very argumentative and negative. Please don't let it get you down. Just take a break away and only use this forum for occasional support when you need to vent ;-). It would be fabulous if you could find an alternative type practitioner to help you, but I realize that may not be possible. As of yet I have been unable to find anyone in my city. However, I've decided to resume my search even if that means traveling somewhere selse. My husband recently found another job so this may now be possible. May God bless you and hang in there!!