Re: Probably not.
"How do you know what gives me peace?"
Okay, this will sound strange but I'll say it anyways. That's what I felt while reading your post. Peace comes from your words. The second suggestion came from that as well. You have a strong sense of God inside of yourself (again I realize this sounds very odd) and it was a suggestion that knowing God more personally wouldn't be upsetting or disturbing.
"How more 'in depth' can you get then God's knowledge?"
I have met very few people who can say that. You are unique in that. Many do not realize that there is more than "going through the motions."
Why would your saying something like "I know God" suggest you know better than God? All (positive) relationships are 2 way streets, it takes the effort of both. God knows my brother, but he most certainly does not know God, nor does he have any peace.
I do the same with not always paying attention. But when I do I can feel God moving in my life very easily. But negative thinking does block that occationally. (alot)