No offense, but to me this is no laughing matter. Whatever is going on with me, it's killing me slowly. I just want to get better. I appreciate all the people on here that have helped me. You all know how I am feeling I'm sure. I've even considered suicide lately. I never thought I'd get to that level of desperation. I won't allow myself to do it, because of my family first, religious beliefs first, and because I am not going to give up yet. Even though nothing seems to be helping yet. I'm ever hopeful.