30-Day Water Fast

Since finals is coming up next Thursday, I feel now is a great time to start a 30-day fast. I was on a 30-day fast with a fasting buddy before, but had to quit on day 8, because I felt I needed energy to read for school. My fasting buddy, Taylor, who I found on CureZone, showed me how you could actually go to 30 days and still go about your day and read and write.

I am using this message thread as my daily fasting journal. I think this will be easier than finding another fasting buddy with the same goals, which is really hard to find.

My plan is to talk about my day every night to show you how life is while fasting, what I learned, cravings, symptoms, weight, anything that comes to mind. I feel like the fact that I am fasting makes what I do that much more meaningful, maybe even holier.

I will check in at the end of the day every day. While I will try to make it the same time checking in, some nights I might be out, so it might be later. Tonight, for example, I will probably be back very late, because every Saturday, I go to a restaurant.

So to introduce myself, my name is Linda, as you can probably tell from my username. My family is vegan except for my brother, who eats milk products sometimes. After my 22-day juice fast in September, 2011, I quit junk food and processed Sugar altogether. But this will not be a juice fast. It will be a water fast. I am a community college student in PA, USA, living with my family. I am 24-years-old, very extroverted, temper 95% calm, very good at writing, can compose in my head, around 121 lb, 5 ft 1 1/2 in, had years of eating disorder and food addiction (but I don't throw up), majoring in Science, seeing a therapist currently, just decided last night to stop all texting with someone I really like, because I like him too much and he has a girlfriend. He was the reason I didn't overeat for a week. But I started to regress yesterday and enjoyed volume binging. Last night I looked up reasons to brush teeth, because I couldn't get myself to, and this motivated me a lot: http://list25.com/25-reasons-you-should-brush-your-teeth/5/
I think the link starts on page five, though, so you need to go to page one. I also looked up scientific reasons a person lies in bed, which I kind of do a lot, and this morning I looked up Science behind overeating.

Last night I wanted to eat for a final time late at night, but didn't after asking myself what I wanted and how I felt. Going to use these two questions a lot in face of cravings. They are like magic words. Why do you think the questions worked? Maybe it helps me get in touch with my feelings and desires and make me aware.

I am fasting to get rid of my eating disorder. I still have to take 12 mg Invega every night during my fast. I really have to take it, for otherwise, I hallucinate more and get psychotic and delusional. Plus I can't live here if I don't take it.

Today is a pretty sunny day. It is 8:28 A.M. right now. I will check in probably after 12 A.M.