Re: To the Men...

You're right, you're right. And I can't stand t.v. I sit there with my friends and get pissed off about all the obvious anti-white male propaganda and no one else even sees it. Ignorance is bliss I'm afraid. Not a fan of big breasts either. A bit much, ya know? Funny you mention the "einstein" quality of women on t.v...In reality people hate intelligent people, especially women I would say. It's very threatening to people, so you learn to act simple.

The funny thing is, I dont really have unrealistically high standards. I see girls I think are gorgeous every day. But I always feel too spaced out or anxious over nothing or depressed to have enough confidence to go after it. I really want to believe the root of this problem is "candida." I have all thesymptoms, cold hands, joint problems, etc. Whenever I start to cut out the carbs, I absolutely go crazy,and my mind thinks up a million reasons why this is stupid, etc. Guys who get what they want just are that way...they dont have to try. They eat like pigs and drink all night, have perfect skin and laugh all day instead of wanting to die constantly. I know no one wants to hear that on here, but its true. Sometimes I get alot of hope that I'll get better, and be this great happy fulfilled person but maybe thats what the psychologists call "grandiosity"