To the Men...

I would like to write a message for the men who might be scanning this forum, unless I am the only one. Im just gonna vent here, just an angry white man without the usual veil of politically correct feminized meekness. I want to have hope, I really do. In the name of alternative "healing" programs I have eaten things that most people, especially people my age (21) wouldnt touch with a ten foot pole with a condom on the end. I hunted down some lady with a goat outside town so I could make "kefir" with raw goats milk. I drank that shit. The last time I drank it (it had gone "bad" I take it) it made me sicker than I have ever been, and that stuff mixed with stomach acid is probably the worst smelling stuff I have ever expelled from my body. That and the cultured vegetables...something you cant eat without people freaking out over what initially smells like feces. This after two doctors tell me candida is not my problem.

So yeah, Im just bitching, and I've never stuck on any of this stuff long enough for it to do anything. But that's not what this is about. How many Men would follow this stuff at all?? Its all (very sweet and well-meaning) new-agey women.

Women will hate me for saying this, but the experience of being a man, particularly a depressed man, is completely different from being a woman. There. I am tired of feeling ashamed of my instincts and drives. Even though i have grown up as a "sweet" softspoken nice guy, I would much rather be hated than felt sorry for. Although I try to fake it, I feel nothing for my parents at all. I long for an attractive woman (my OWN race, high forehead, big wide-set eyes, pouty lips, porcelain skin, light hair, not FAKE beauty), the kind that is dangled in front of my face 24/7 by the media, because it knows so well the strength of this desire. Beauty is not in the eye of the beholder, and Science has proven it for people who are too much in denial. I have been with women I totally enjoyed the company of, had great conversations and laughs with, but whenit came to the real sexual attraction, it didnt compare to that with the very scarce but truly gorgeous ones in my life. Some girls you just want to hold and protect(of course to mate with really), and others you really dont feel anything for. The difference? Genetically determined objectively attractive characteristics of beauty. Where to the feel-gooders stand on this reality? Oh, right it doesnt matter, I almost forgot.

This thought makes me laugh. Sometimes I think "If I were a woman who wasnt very attractive, my position in the scheme of things socially, sexually,etc would HAVE to make me very depressed." But you know what I realized? It's not the same withwomen! They are designed to be all nurturing and child-oriented, while I am designed to compete with the other males for the most attractive females to carry my genes! Men are drones, disposable. The ones without the merit to identify as a winner become depressed and therefore a big joke for the rest of society. Just watch a hollywood movie...depressed white loser, big f**king joke.

I think most depressed people, like most people, are too stupid to figure out what their real problems stem from, and focus on little life circumstances. Maybe intelligent depressed people figure out the real underlying unnaturalness and cruelty of the social environment, and give up. We havent evolved past the hunter-gatherer stage, folks. All we really care about is sex, food, and who's the boss. Why does no one have the balls to admit this besides the research community? It would be SHOCKING if such a thing as Depression did not exist in this "society." Ok, there's a straw man for you, whose going to douse him with kerosene?