Re: Heartbroken and scared

I am so sorry to read of your experiences.  I am not certain if your post was an all-out venting event, or if you're seriously questioning "what to do," at this point. 

I had similar experiences and I assure you that there is, indeed, a Life After Mistakes.  I chose two very dangerous partners, and I spent 30 years in one form of dysfunction or another.  The story is long and I've blogged about my recovery and healing processes here on CureZone:  "Coping With Betrayal."  If you're inclined, it may be of some encouragement to read a couple of entries.

Do post back and determine whether you're ranting (which is TOTALLY allowed), or reaching out for suggestions. 

Brightest healing blessings to you