Re: juicing

I don't think anyone is reading this... but someday my story may help some out. Today is day 35 and I'm down to 201.6lbs. I'm dry fasting for today and hopefully tomorrow. I forgot how difficult it can be. Last night I had nightmares. I laid down to rest my eyes (in the afternoon) and had a mini series of nightmares as well. I keep thinking "well maybe can have some of that new peach sleepy time tea I enjoyed so much yesterday"... my mind is trying to break me. I'd like to confirm that it is indeed a soft dry fast. I have to bathe my kids and such so contact with liquid is inevitable. The closer I get, the longer it feels. This is my penance. This is what I must endure. I'm not dying but it not "comfortable". I always hated getting out of my comfort zone. I need to get use to it. Had a headache again. I'm hoping the dry fasting cleans deeper and helps stop the headaches. Even while I'm juicing. I'm sensitive to stress I guess. I get headaches instantly that last all day. Ill feel a little better once we put up the Christmas tree and it feels warm and cozy. Hoping is one of the more relaxed months of this fast. I originally planned on 120 days of fasting. And I know I sound like I'm ready to give up but don't underestimate my determination. I now want to make sure--ABSOLUTELY SURE-- that I will be 109lbs by the end of this fast. So my new goal is 150 days. Following the break of my fast I will ease into insanity (the workouts lol!) And a full body workout every two days. I want to be fit/muscular (abs, butt, thighs. Arms just a bit not overdone). These are my goals and they are built one day at a time. I mentioned in yesterday's post that my face is clearing. I also had a scar from sitting on a flat iron (haha) that my friend had on the floor. Its significantly much much better. I thought it wouldbe there for life. That's pretty amazing to me. I have to go buy some avocados and stuff for a dish I'm making to contribute to thanksgiving (the world keeps on turning when fasting) but I also need something tasty to juice that day so I'm not whining like a baby. They all tell me "just a taste? Just a bite?" What don't you understand! Lol oh man. I think I'm hibernating for Christmas. I can barely stand people when I'm eating... imagine now.. I'm not mean just another introvert. I got the new smash brothers (yes I game at 23) so that should be cool. Just waiting till December to start playing. I also want to final fantasy and my monster hunter tri. The man and I have been playing L.A Noir when we put the kids to bed. It will be nice to dry brush and bathe soon. Keep on keeping on!