Dear Naturalman,
This is Lori under another username. I envy you (not in a bad way) for a beatiful 30-year relationship. That is very rare and I would give anything to have it. I have a miserable marriage. You sound as if you were very happy and hang on to that. What a blessing! You will be fine. I will say prayers for you, for you sound like a rare man. You have made me feel better, and I will take your advice.
Lori M.