PeacePlease7, I've been where you are, believe it, or not. I've been contributing to this, and other sites, and advovating for victims of domestic violence and abuse for many years, now. It has taken me this long to finally experience recovery and actually begin the healing process.
With what you are experiencing, it's no wonder that you're in a vortex of fear, depression, and anxiety. It might be an option to apply for every program of public assistance available where you live. If you are in the US, apply through the County Human Services Agency to secure the help that you need for yourself and your child.
If you're doing counseling through a charitable organization, you might not be able to engage with a trauma specialist, so ask your counselor for management tools and techniques that will help you to get a handle on the anxiety, to start.
You will sort it out as you can, for your child and for yourself so that you'll emerge from these horrific experiences as a calmer and wiser human being.