Re: when I was 17

I am so sorry that you were assaulted and that your world view has changed. There is free counseling through Domestic Violence and Sexual Assault agency that every state has. If they are not close check to see what other agencies offer free counseling. Your sadness is stacking up and it is important to work through the loss of your Mom, the loss of your family and the vicious rape. I promise you, life is worth living and if you can make it through the sadness, self loathing, self hatred, and anger there will be a light at the end of the tunnel. I speak from experience.