not sure if this is any consolation - i myself came on this site to get some help but I was raped a few months ago by three men who cut me on my breasts and vagina as well
I think of the rape every time I see the cuts and I wish I could die- it is a physical reminder of the most abusive and degrading experience of my life
I have considered plastic surgery and may do it soon - I cannot bear to see these
as for sex with other men - i dont think i will contemplate it for a very long time - u have to heal but know u r not alone