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Re: when I was 17
That's awful.
Not trying to be an ass by saying this but there's always plastic surgery and a good plastic surgeon could make the scars not look so bad and possibly non existent. They basically "cut" the scars off and stretch a new piece of skin over it so it's smoother and hidden. Might want to look into it and keep it in mind for the future. At least there's a chance at some positive light at the end of the tunnel to be able to look at yourself in a mirror and not be repulsed.
I have tons of scars. One on my arm from a sharp knife that cut through a few layers of skin. Not from anything like this, but still..its a scar. and even though I have a permanent red line on my arm, scars really do fade over the years. It was a smooth cut though. The lumpy, bumpy or bubbly scars can be fixed by a good surgeon.
Stop worrying so much about sex and what they would think. Don't rush into the sex with a new guy. If you're with the right guy, you should be able to TELL him this upfront before he gets your clothes off and is shocked. You don't have to have sex on the first date, the first week or even the first month. Some people wait months before they get into bed. Find the guys that aren't just looking for sex and they won't care so much about you looking "perfect" down there. With all your emotional stress from all this, you shouldn't be just finding guys to "date" and then have sex with anyway because it might be more than you can handle. Sex is not the best way to get or keep a guy even for those with the perfect bodies.
There's always options for kids too. Even if you can't carry them yourself, you might still have the option of finding a seragate someday who will take your eggs and your partner's sperm so it's still "your" baby and a part of you, it just won't come out of you.
Go somewhere and talk to a specialist about everything. You're not the only one out there who has been through this and they can help you more than you can help yourself.