Thank you guys for replying and sharing your stories.
I like topics like that because it really shows so many similarities with my own story...
For many years I believed I was so competitive and angry just because I grew up in a violent society. I can't really fault myself for that because the ones who were not so competitive are either dead or drank themselves into insanity...
I'm actually quite happy that I finally slowed down and can now sit and watch the sunset...
Now I realize that life is great as God created it, I just wish I had enough health to enjoy it:)