Re: Heart is broken, help!!

SunflowerGirl1121, I don't know if you checked out the website that I posted, above, but there are numerous "Red Flags" that are screaming, flapping, and waving about your situation.

If I read your post correctly, you indicate that you are a pathological liar.  If I read wrong, then, please accept my sincere apology.  If you are a pathological liar and you know that you are, then you have a choice to either sort it out, or not.  There are 2 reasons for pathological lying:  a> lying out of fear of rejection/abandonment, or  b> lying to control. 

The man that you have involved yourself with is toxic, at the very least.  He's sabotaged your self-worth, self-esteem, and personal goals and it's a classic textbook example of bait, lure, use, discard that sociopaths use to entertain themselves.  What happens is that they create an illusion and, once their targets have been acquired and used, they discard them without any remorse.  In fact, the more successful, giving, loving, and goal-oriented their targets are, the more appealing those targets become because dismantling that human being's psyche and world is such an exciting challenge.  And, the targets "have" things that the sociopath will never have, themselves, so they "punish" their targets as much as possible.

The only answer to cutting ties with someone who means to harm us is going "NO CONTACT."  That means that we block their numbers, emails, text messages, and mutual friends from our lives, completely.  We do not read emails, text messages, cards, or letters - we block them and return to sender.  We do not speak with mutual friends - EVER - because their "friends" are not our "friends."  We don't allow others to say, "You know, ____ really misses you," or, "_____ said that you were batshit crazy about him and that you're stalking him," or anything else. 

WIth regard to how "good" the sex was, please, check out this extremely informative discussion:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=eMrRAJhv_s0

And, when you feel inspired to do it, check out the website that Donna Andersen created that addresses sociopathy as a result of her own harrowing experiences.  You'll find a wealth of information, explanations, and things that you can do to help heal from this, focus on YOU and your education, and boundaries. 

www.lovefraud.com

Brightest blessings