Heart is broken, help!!

I have made some very bad choices that I am really afraid of.


I'm a 23 year old girl who broke up with my fiancé of three years about three months ago. He was kind, caring, sweet and dependable. He was always willing to listen and put me first. For some reason that I do not understand yet, the relationship started to get boring for me. He was a nice man but he didn't do many of the things I wanted to do at the time and my friends said he was a little controlling and overly emotional. I thought I would find more happiness if I called things off.

Things went ok for a while until I started talking to his friend, 15 years my senior, has a son, and everything I was looking for to just have fun with. Now, it turns out, he is exactly the type of man I have a bad history with; emotionally unavailable, angry, bitter, in need of help, and incredible in bed. Things went well for a while until my pathological lying and his anger issues clashed in a bad way. As much as I was in the wrong, he yelled at me and said things to me that I will never forget. I also have been told, by him, there is a good chance he is a paranoid schizophrenic. I don't know what to do. Things are over romantically, but I slept with him once after our breakup and as much as I try to not talk to him, i miss him and cave. I am way in over my head with this man and I can't get him out of my mind. School is now much much harder and i feel like a prisoner to my constant thinking of him. HELP! Tweet