Re: Hi guys

Funny enough I came on here because I'm feeling a bit down and suicidal myself. I just think I would be better off dead. Getting up in the mornings to go to work is getting harder everyday. People don't react to my odor,but I can smell it! No one at work ever complains about it, and I do believe I stink up the whole workplace, especially around the area that i work. I find it amazing that not one client/co-worker ever complains. When my boss (very posh female) comes near me and touches me I cringe only because I can't see why anyone would wanna touch anyone as disgusting as me (despite the fact that i'm such a hopelessly clean person). Today I asked my BFF if i smell bad, and she swore on everything that she loves that i have no odor at all. We use to work in the same office (that i destroyed mith my stench), and today I asked her if the odor from that office ever bothered her and she said there was none. (She laughed and said I'm CRAZY!) Now I know that it may sound like i'm crazy but about 6 years ago I was working elsewhere (had the same odor) and a co-worker told me that I smell,sprayed my butt and when i started to get upset he says he laughed and said he "was only helping me out". This same d**ba** started sending me love notes...??? That was the first and last time I was told that i smell bad. How can i ignore that and believe what my BFF is telling me? The odor doesn't seem to be on me but "around" me? I can only smell the odor at work. I would love to have someone step foot inside the office that I work and tell me if they smell this odor. I believe every clearing of the throat, sneezing, sniffing, sniffling, coughing, look, pause, is because of my odor. I'm so depressed! Any input is welcome. Affliction it's funny how we're both feeling the same way. If i didn't have a daughter who depends on me I would've called it that already. But my baby needs her mom. She deserves someone better. I hate me. My boyfriend is the most unlucky guy to be with a useless piece of shit like me.