Re: Going Through abuse again.

Hi there.

The same day I posted the message, I waited for Tracy to come home and as soon as she walked in I told her everything.

She was very understanding and supportive. She arranged for me to go see a therapist who I see regularly.

The advise you posted is really accurate. I only read it now, but as I am still working through this issues it is really helpfull.

I do have a father and I always thought that we had a pretty good relationship. But as you state "emotionally available", he is quite emotionally distant with me.

Could this be the root of all these problems?

I am on a journey to get all this sorted out, and it has been very difficult. As per my therapist's advice, I will persue legal action against the doctor as soon as I am emotionally strong enough to rationally think about what has happened.

I am very far from normal, but I have been open about this with tracy in explicit detail and my therapist. I REALLY want a "normal" life. I want to understand why my life has ended up this way and not make the same mistakes with my possible children some day.

I do love my wife dearly and if not for her I would not have survived this. She is super understanding and has not as far as I know judged me on a single thing.

We will work through this, and the above advise has really hit home.

I thought I was an atheist for the past 8 years an vividly rebelled against all things "GOD"

I am seeing my error now and I am trying fix it. It is extremely difficult. I have suppressed so much of me over the years, I need to find myself again.

Thank you for the advise and your kind words.

I will keep you updated from time to time.

GOD bless. Tweet