Re: I don't want to live for 2 weeks a month

I hate that all of us women have to suffer from this!!! I hate that I have to go through the remainder of my post Mirena hell pregnant!! I have always wanted a third child, this should be an exciting time for me, but Bayer and their stupid Mirena has sucked the excitement right out of me!!!!
I am currently 7 weeks pregnant and just had my first ultrasound and it was NOT good! They found the gestational sac and the yolk sac but no fetal pole or heartbeat. I have heard this happen to a lot of women getting pregnant post Mirena. I am also losing my pregnancy symptoms quickly and the cramping is so persistent and often "stop you in your tracks" painful! No spotting yet, but at this point I wouldn't be shocked if it did come. So on top of all my post MIrena symptoms, I have to deal with the possibility that I will lose the baby (because of the Mirena).

On a good note, my hormones are starting to level out and I feel like I am having more good days or days where most of my awake hours are pretty good. I can focus at work now a lot better than before. My concentration was HORRIBLE and so were the mood swings. But have started Claritan and it has relieved my braing fog, YAY!! And I have noticed that my "depression" and anxiety seems to come when I am most exhausted at the end of the day. My OB said that the Mirena has sent me on a hormonal rollercoaster ride and that in the second trimester (if I make it that far) should level out more. I hope so and have faith in it, since I am seeing "some" <------- operative work here, relief in my symptoms (anxiety and depression). I pray everyday for the Lord to help me in some way, and he always comes through. I still wake up everyday, no matter how I feel, and chug along with the day even when I feel my worse. I can;t give up now! I have made it through 3 months so far and it gets a little better as the weeks go by. I can't expect a miracle, although I hope for one everyday!!

Head up, Eska! You will get through it girl!! You have made it this far. Sending prayers your way!!