Re: I don't want to live for 2 weeks a month

Hello,

I know exactly what you are saying. I am about 6 and half months post and I feel the same way. I don't want a single second more of my life stolen from me. Like you I try my hardest to remain positive, because thats all we can do and that is what will get us through.

However, looking at my poor aged looking body this morning I started to doubt that I can make a full recovery. I went to the theatre with a friend the other evening and I looked around me at girls my age and suddenly felt so removed from them. I thought, this experience makes me feel I have nothing in common with these youg women. I feel old for the experience and old for it weighing me down, old for how damaged my body is.

I want to feel light again, carefree, skip. At least know that I will be able to reclaim myself at some point. I cried for the 1st time in such a long time this morning. I decided I need to do that once in a while. This is horrendous. It's normal to cry, it hurts. I don't have to be this brave.

Take care honey. Thanks for listening too. Don't give up.
I hope there are better days ahead for you.

love Clare xx