Re: No "grey line" here

Thank you for your response. It really means a lot to me and I would like to talk to you more. If you would email me your regular email, I would like to contact you. What I want is to figure out how to stop the feelings of betrayal and exploitation that still hurt me after so many years.

What the rapist did was bad, but so much additional hurt came from my sister's participation in the act. 4 years before she set me up, I saved her from being raped. Her form of repayment leaves a bit to be desired.

The way things went down (the way they dropped me off and left), she had to know what position she was leaving me in. I have spent many hours going over in my head what I could have done differently, but it ultimately doesn't change what really happened and leaves me sad and frustrated.