Re: Not a good question about sex

Thanks for the well wishing. One day maybe I will look into a vibrator, perhaps when he goes back to sea again. My husband told me about the women in the clubs the day after the ship goes out and also about the men messing around with women from the ship or whores in Thailand or elsewhere(I don't mean the term "whores" to be derogatory, necessarily, just factual).

Then they come back together and act normal. I do believe that he is faithful as well, and I know that now he trusts me. It is hard. I can't say it hasn't crossed my mind that when we're separated, wouldn't it be nice to have this time to get it out of our system, have sex, enjoy that side of our lives that somehow no longer comes together. This is sad that I would be tempted, but knowing the pain it would cause him, a man I love so much, is not something I can do out of my own selfishness.

And on a more shallow note, casual sex is never as wonderful as the true passion of people in love. I only wish he and I could share it again and more often. It was amazing when we first got together. As sexua| of a woman as I am, it is odd to feel unsexual and as if memories will be my only claim to not being asexual, but what can I do? I know infidelity would break his heart and end our marriage instantly. This I will not do.

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