I'm so happy to hear you sounding so well. I had a feeling this would be a remarkable experience for you. And to imagine you have so much good ahead of you, ditto. Was teasing you about the PG portion of your post.
re: karezza
Have you read Dr. Bass's book? I highly recommend it. I wish I'd come across the like when I was much younger and highy sensual -- I'm a renunciate now, and quite happy to be, but I'd love to give it to my son; except I am pretty sure it's not the sort of thing a young man wants from his mother.
I wonder about a way to just have it cross his path... I believe it's the only sane and wise way to approach a life of active sexuality.
all the best to you, with your plans to be of service! May all go well with you