Life is amazing.

Thank you chiron.

I know it has only been a few days ago that I was in a bad situation with my weight and you advising me to stop and eat. I am grateful because maybe I might have had to be hospitalized.

I couldn't get to true hunger but it is okay. I am so invigorated and full of energy even now at 1:52 am since I woke up around 9am. I feel alive, awake, and like a child.

Life is good. Life is sweet. Life is amazing. (Corny yeah but this is what my mind is saying)

I decided to go back to my homeland Philippines (I have my connections even though I've been living here since 2) and become a nurse or nurse practitioner. I'll come back to NYC to get some degree in Holistic medicine and want to open a clinic and maybe open a gluten/soy/corn/dairy free organic vegan restaurant either here or in the Philippines on the side.

As for the men at work thing. It was only one time to "test" (oh god no pun intended) it out. Again I repeat, I plan to practice tantric and karezza practices in the future with a loving partner. I'll do a lot of things for the sake of experience and recording for others. No shame in that. Only shame was almost passing out by the toilet. And I have passed out in a toilet before (bad story) and I am more embarraased by my the former.

God bless friend,
Blaise