23 days down the drain -- back to day 1

I don't even know how to start this thread. I finally took my first bite and couldn't stop eating. I have eaten and eaten and eaten and I feel like a human sponge.... everything that I have eaten is being stored in my bloated body.

I had the "fasting" thing down... but, the "re-feeding" thing I don't know how to do. I have been like a mad man.

Of course, I won't be talking to anyone about this... but, YOU who is reading this. I feel horrible.

I got on the scale the first day.... what took me about 10 days to loose, I gained back in a day. I was fasting to break this addiction I have towards food and once again.. it kicked me in the butt.

So, I am back to day one and dreading it all.... the hunger, etc. I wonder if all the same detox will occur as horribly as it was all those other days?????

I reach out for HELP here. Does anyone have any answers to what I am going through right now? The mental hell that I am putting myself through is miserable.

I humbly ask for help.

Help.

I remain,
Shay