I just found a book today. Forgot the name of it. But it talks about how candida ties into autism and that is why I think I feel about as done with life as you do. I will get the name of the book and get back to you. But I know that they talk about taking Nizoral which has helped all the patients in the study. Also vitamin A, galic, caprylic acid, asparagus, apple cider vinegar. Also cocounut oil and cocunut milk.
For grounding during this process to use copper braclets on your ankles. Helps ground a person so they can think.